Dancing naked in the dark
The music guiding her into unconscious realms of existence

She tread through terrains
Three months ago would have sunk her into throes of panic

She allowed the energy to take over
This time, dancing to the flow

Tears running down her face
Allowing the pain to hurt some more

Stepping into the emptiness
Fear taking over with each breath

Getting intimate with her hurt-able human nature
She had learn to dismiss as silliness

Naked, tears and heart, she lay on the floor
Curled up like a fetus, misery galore

She closed her eyes
Giving herself permission to feel

In the silence of the dark
A vulnerable little girl, deep in a corner of a prison
Shaking with fear
Death loomed over with persistence

“I have come for you, you worthless life
I have come for you
Disguised in the form of humans you love
To threaten you out of your existence.

You deserve no sense of belonging
No matter where you are
There will always be a longing
Nothing will save you, even from afar”

She sobbed to God
Show me mercy, if you are real

Rob me of these emotions
Just so you know, none of this is ideal

Breaking the deadly silence
Finally came some respite

The empty space spoke
Willing to give some advice

“These said emotions you curse
Are the gateway to everything
How can there be mercy?
When all of it is but life

So feel, my dear heart,
Resist your temptation to fight
Let the pain not distort
As a distraction from fright

In the end
There is only all

Believe me
Into the nothingness
Is where you shall eventually fall.